Peace I find, no where alive
God is witness to his demise
Tranquil mind, sets on long
Never rests, just wait for dawn

Me, I wish, only this thing
To sleep and dream today
To live and feel like I'm okay
To given me something by day

Peace I find, no where alive
God is witness to his demise
Tranquil mind, sets on long
Never rests, just wait for dawn

Try to hold it back inside
Can't I, no, I need to cry
Suffering in this only to die
The worthless life I held inside.

Want to see a little bit more
Close my eyes and then it goes
Override my lonely soul
Curse inside my made up world

I am so lost in my imagination
To make your wishes
someday come true

Don’t let me be alone
Don’t let me be alone
Don’t let me be alone
Don’t let me be alone

I'll change my mind 1000 times
And then I'll dwell on fuzzy memories
Have recurring dreams
they don't mean a thing.
Tread on four leaf clovers
While searching for you

'Cause I lost you along the way
I didn't want to
Now I can't find you
Running too far ahead
My heart is racing
What have I wasted?

Write down my thoughts
so I can remember
Shield my eyes from the sun
Question myself and everyone else
Hold on to what stands still
So I can't get away

Days don't seem to end
When you're all alone
The thoughts never stop
even when you're sleeping
you have run away
hope they never find you
this is how you live
when you're all broken

all alone in your own self illusion
all broken up inside
but there's nothing i can do
you suck away what used to be...
cringe and hide in fear
because you are broken

I am only lost again
In this place I can't
Feel this anymore..
I can't take this anymore
I fell into the deep end
I fell into the deep end

I don't know anymore
Exactly what this is for
I don't care anymore
About anything at all
I fell into the deep end again
It sucked me into its hole
and then it beat me

dont you feel the problems
as they run us over
dont you worry about them
they will go away

problems kill me
anxiety runs me over
worry about everything
i never have time to think anymore
oh i die in my sleep
no the world is over
killed somebody else, i dont care
somebody stop me before i go
someone was with me to take my fall

problems kill me
anxiety runs me over
worry about everything
i never have time to think anymore
die in my sleep no
the whole world is over
killed somebody else
oh fuck them I don't care
somebody stop me before I go
someone was with me to take my fall

suicide is on my mind
'cause everything is over
somebody loved me yesterday
i got out my gun and i shot em
..yeah, i shot em.

No fireworks exploded
But in my mind they dwelled
Finally too perfect
Finally not a dream

Too beautiful
Nobody in the way
The time going slowly
The cold air turns warm

Surreal the dream
to be mine
be to dream
the surreal.

waited for the perfect chance
so shortly changed the way
i could let myself feel

over and over it replays
and i close my eyes
and smile sincerely
held within my mind

Drivin' and it doesn't matter where
As long as you're by my side
Got the DK in and my sunglasses on
Hey why don't you come for a ride?
Like now. Now is a good time

Think I should play it safe today
Don't wanna cut this short
Don't mind passing cops out here
But I'd hate to see them in court
Like this. This is a good speed to go.

Today I think we should get lost
Take the long way home
We can stay here as long as we'd like
Just as long as I'm not alone
Like today, nobody will notice we're gone.

Miles away and we've got no map
But you've got me feeling great
Throw our caution to the wind
Drive on to the next state
Like hope, hope we don't forget why we came

We don't need coffee
We don't need cigarettes
We've got an open road
And you're as good as it gets
I'll tilt the mirror so I catch your eyes a bit
Just don't pretend that there's an end
Use the stars as our only guide

My drowsy eyes, they're closing
Behind the lids I see the past
Maybe you don't feel the same way
But it's me I feel ashamed

I can never feel your breath again
I go to sleep
and that's the only time I'll be
Smiling and laughing
and there's no one staring at me
Just one of me and none of you
and still feels all the same
Just in my mind is where you lie
and let me win my game

But I always lose to you
My only love
The one I'm always dreaming of
The one on my mind
The one for my eyes
Is fading away

I've forgotten how it feels to be secure
And all this empty feelings
aren't so sure
To clue myself in on
what I seem to miss
Is taken away by
a thought of your kiss
My body lies there dead on all ends
But from then on, I descend

Here I am all alone
Just me and my strings and a box of wood
Bottle of whiskey, the rum is all gone
It’s hard to play electric guitar

And I’ve tried so hard This is all I get
Just once in a while I’d like to forget
Just give me all your money Swear to pay it back
Its hard to play electric guitar.

Your wish is my command
I’ll do anything you say to me
Just wish me away and I’ll leave
Play the guitar it’s a lead

Got my things, now that I’m drunk
Perfect way to play the show
This is what you always dreamed of
Only problem is no one’s there

I try to show you just a little bit
How I try to be the better friend
All I wanna do it hold you tight
And show you that I really care

And I know that there's nothing the same
As a love so pure as your embrace
And I hold my arms so tight
for the distance that binds us is so far away
Call me back form the place where I started
To show me that its all alright
You did everything
to show me that you really care

If you want to know the truth about me
I' ll show everything I can
If you want me to be more open
I'll tell you everything I can
Ill be the one to show you that I love you so

Holding back all the fear
So everything will disappear
Take them down away from here
Take my life, throw it down
Feel the torture that's inside me
as I hurt

Take it back, far away from here
Take it far away
so I never have to fear it
Take it to a place
where I never have to see it
Take it far away
so I never have to fear it

what if this life
made it to an end
what if i thought
you looked better in red.

and worse then yet
what if you agreed
what if you simply
shook your head no..

What if you just
let things come and go..
What if i stopped here
What if you fell off..

What if you were losing it
What if you were lost?
What if no one cared
What if no one cried
What if we're immortal
What if we don't die?
What if you could fly
What if you'd been blind

What if you were all alone
What if you were fine?
Maybe we're all old..
But what if we're still new?
What if you fell off
What if i pushed you?

What if you had grabbed my hand?
What if you had pulled me down?
What if i had lost my will?
What if I fell off...with you?

Following near I hear your whispers
Following near I hear your crying
Following near I hear your thoughts
And I begin to cry on the ground

Following near i hear your whispers
Following near i hear your crying
Following near I hear your whispers
Following near i hear your crying

Following near i hear your whispers
Following near i hear your crying
Following near i hear your thoughts
And i begin to cry on the ground

Following near i hear your whispers
Following near i hear your crying
Following near i hear your whispers
Following near i your crying

This is not the end of everything
Life can never stay the same
Why can't you tell me what you want me to be?

Who I am isn't decided
I'm not a self involved zombie in your plan
Undeceptive though you think you are
I can see right through you, hollow and heartless

Maybe last night I dreamt I was one of you
And I was miserable and there was nothing I could do
I staggered on and when I was done
I realized that I'd just begun
You with your whip in hand
Hollow and Heartless and snap on command
And it was the pressure in demand.

And I strive not to be like you
Cause I don't want to be loved
Hollow and Heartless, Cold and Diffused
To be turned away like you

(chorus)
Hollow and heartless..

Where do we turn when everything is gone
Help we took for granted is nowhere to be found
Drowning in our regrets it's too late for turning back
Left with no where to run and no one left to ask

i feel inside a want so deep
that I can't find the words to speak
and every other day the minutes pass so slow
I'm thinking that there's no where left to go

Staring at the wall my brain is sinking down
I finally found the secret to just being myself
Staring at the world I take a good look
See it's turned to shit - crumble and it's gone

I tried, I failed, I looked the other way
I saw, I watched, my guilt did not stay
I lost, I cried, I wondered why
But never did I want it again

But now, that you're here again
I want the same things that I always did
Maybe it'll all be fine
But never did I want it again

Just because I’m different
The world expects me to separate
From society so normal
I’m just really different

Please just let me be alone
With the masses of the world
All I’ve done and all I’ve tried
Always failed and I don’t know why

Just because I’m wondering
Wondering, what will happen?
Give me a wish, a single wish
All I ask for all time

Please tell me that this is not the same.
Please tell me that the world is different.

Lost and lonely, I wonder on.
Words couldn't say the way I was.
Holding back all my thoughts inside
Wishing I could tell you why

I want you and no one else
To show me what it's like
To feel so much inside
To share it all with you

Aggravate the simple salts
And tell them that it's all my fault
Thick line between you and me
That divulge into misery

Pick up all that's left now and you won't be left to blame.

Oh, sublet to feeling
Saw the urban jungle
Irrigation, fertilizer rebound

Touched on sensitivity
That burned a hole inside TV
Wade the merchant melée
And overthrown it yesterday

Semblance to the overkill
Raindrops leaking windowsill
Debt to grievance, owe to time
Fast ace, losing pace, picking up for your disgrace.

I'm not gonna run away from you
I'm not afraid of you, so what should I do?
Don't you try to run away
Don't you think I'll find you and take you away?

This is the last time that I will call on you
This is the first time that I will ever give up
This is the last time that I will try
You will run away from me

I tried to find you but you just ran away
I tried to talk to you but you didn't listen to me
I was so uncertain til you came and found me
What should I ask you?
I don't care...

Your saturday drug's kickin' in
Are you fond of your sin?
Try to reverse this curse
Nothing's better than Saturday

Oh you're loving it
Blowin' Away
With the tangerines in your mouth today

Yesterday feels like a dream from the past
Nothing's good; you're the best
23rd day in a row
Will you come back to me?

We've done all that we can
For you
And the leaves are falling on Saturday

Why did you leave me here alone
In my misery?
We tried to find you, yeah we tried
But we came up dry

This spontaneity has taken the best from me
Designed this empty lifestyle for the founders of my fate
Asking for forgiveness, but I know I've gone too far
Accepting so much wisdom and taking it with life

A dripping cup of apathy
I may appear so insincere, but it's not what you hear
It's not what I mean
But I won't go away!
Don't think I'll ever change for you or anyone else

Sick infatuation
Sick infatuation
Sick infatuation I'm in love

As I walk down these stormy streets
My heart wanders so lonely
As I hurt myself again
I pray for someone to find me
I walked around with you
So hopeless and confused
Somebody better put me away

You heard my pain and you did not help me
You felt my pain and you did not follow
You hurt me so bad, think I'll just run away
Why not kill somebody, cause nobody'd care

(chorus)

I walk away from anything that might be good
I want to burn them all, not sure if I should save anyone
As I put your memories away I move onto better things
So much for hurting you, I killed you anyway

I want you to hurt me
To abuse me to feel me
I need you to hold me
To stop me to push me

Take me over the edge with you
Make me love you pure as pure
Give me something I've never had
Trust me, I can always lend a hand

Give me your heart and I'll love you though.
Open yourself up and give me a taste.
Hurt me a little then make me feel great.
Lie to me never but give me fate.

These feelings inside are so strong.
They grow in me.
They live in me.
This love I hold true.
Is for you.
Is from me.

If it came on trees
Would you sell it?
And if it came for free
Would you buy it?
And if it came in a dozen
Would you share it with all your friends?
And if it were all over
Would it make a difference?

Happiness ain't what you want
It's just not something you can have
You always think you know but you never really knew
Happiness ain't what you want

Now you're sitting all alone
By yourself - you wonder why?
It doesn't come in a package, on a shelf, that you can buy
And all those people in your head
You can't buy them off (they don't just fall in traps)
Those things that you really want
You can't have - they're not for sale

(chorus)

Is this how you had it all planned out?
And is this what you always imagined?
All those times you had nothing to say
You were just too far away

Maybe we can be friends
And maybe in the end
Something good will come from this

I’ll always be afraid
I’ll never make it to the end
Just let me be your friend

There is something in-between
The lives we share are different
But that is the way they are meant to be.

Holding on to what I had
Maybe I should be dead
Or indifferent to you

All my life lived this way
Now I found some one but what can I say
All the traditions held silent in my head
Maybe I should just ask or would I be wasting my breath

I just want to get to know you.
But what do I say to get to you.
Little bit of time is all it takes
Maybe then I can think of something to say

But my time is running out
Maybe I show you this song
What would think of me then?
How could I be heart broken?
When I don’t even know your name

Wasted waiting on the curb
Something's got me paranoid
Trying not to think a thought
Use my mind and fall apart

Long time (and) over done worthless tries

Falling apart waiting for you
Feel my time drift away
On the currents on a different wave
All is lost and forgiven

Ashamed to show my true face
Afraid you'll leave me in disgrace
Hurt myself a thousand times
But I Never know why

You’re in the back of my mind
You won’t leave, you won’t go
You stay in the back of my head
I can’t shake, I can’t escape

You’re in the back of my mind
When I dream and when I’m thinking
And I didn’t mean those things
I meant some, I meant none

I’ve got a hand on your life
I tried to stand, I fell inside
You were the first one to be so close
You were the first one to be so far

And when I look back
Through all I’ve ever said
I must have meant every word
I can never forget you
Hope you never forget me
Hand in hand, but not in daylight
You won’t be with me

You’re in the back of my head
I feel weighed down instead
I’m looking out on everybody
And taking it all in

You’re in the back of my mind
And you’re always pushing
I’m always holding
You’re in the back of my head
My head, my head.

Only when you find out
that I don’t need you around
Can’t you see the things
that I can’t do for you?

All this loneliness I’ve seen this around
One time I want to call out
and hear the sound of your voice

We live in security.
Different lives we will always lead.
Just as long as everything stays the same

All these people I’ve seen them around
No one says a thing
maybe its time for me to give them a plea

And it’s been a long time since I’ve seen your face
And I wish I didn’t leave so soon
One word could always say
Everything I wanted to say to you

All of my emotions have been fading away
Everything you thought about me was taken away
All I wanted was something to say, yeah

Maybe I should have seen it coming
Maybe I should have done something
If I could be more forthcoming
I could do something for you

For everything I've done I will suffer
Everytime I look out the window I'll see you
I will see you
See you.

When i feel like everything is bad
my world is _____ and i'm missing something

and when i wake up i can barely get up
i don't wanna see the world like this

and by far this is the saddest song
even though it's got the major chords

and when i wake up i can barely get up
i don't wanna see the world like this
and all the things i've done
they don't add up to one...
single worthwhile day

wait a minute here
i'm not giving up so fast
there's got to be something for me
maybe a little happiness
maybe a train crash
maybe a sigh of relief

so long i've waited for beginning
but i guess it's just not happening for me

and when i wake up i can barely get up
i don't wanna see the world like this
and all the things i've done
they don't add up to one...
single worthwhile day

We are all alone in this world
Nothing you can do about it
Just smile and take the bait
Because you are the one who will lose

And I have seen your face around this place
And it has made me so happy

And what is this world good for
If we can't even love some one
And is this all that's left
When can we try again

And I've seen your face in this place
And it has made me so insane

And you have nothing to give
But I don't want anything

Anything Anything Anything

And I've seen your face in this place
And it has made me so insane

And you have nothing to give
But I don't want anything

Anything Anything Anything

For You

I could classify you as just one of those who
ran so quickly by me you left scuff marks on the floor
and like it never happened - wanting to be more than friends
I guess it's unfair of me to ask you to read my mind

I don't know where you went
Or when I might see you again
I knew when I met you, you'd fail me
Sooner or later

I tried not to love you, I tried to be above that
I obeyed every word you said, nodded my pretty head
Thanks for making me think that I was on the verge
Of beginning at least some part of my life with you

I don't know where you went
Or when I might see you again
I knew when I met you, you'd fail me
Sooner or later

Let's go on a trip, you said
Let's not hold hands, you implied
Let's have the time of somebody else's life
(What am I supposed to think?
You practically ran away!
) So how am I supposed to feel?
I thought that it might have been real

Maybe you got married
Maybe you're a secretary
Maybe you got your name legally changed to Mary

I figured it was me
Cause how could it be you??
It seemed so perfect
But it didn't come through. You tried to be vague
And I thought that made you cute
You might have been perfect
But it just wasn't coming through
Where am I supposed to go now
What if you tried to find me somehow?

Maybe I got married
Maybe I'm a secretary
Maybe I got my name legally changed to Mary

I can't stop thinking of you
Now that I can't see you again
I thought I might have been in love
You only thought that I was your friend
I wish I'd had the courage to say
Exactly what I thought the whole time
But now it's much too late
You've begun the rest of your life

Maybe you got married
Maybe you're a secretary
Maybe you got your name legally changed to Mary

Getting nervous about my life
Don't know which way to go
So I'll just sit here on the sofa
Maybe I'll think about tv

So while my mom screams at me
And my dad says, "Get a job"
We never really know what we're doing here
And when I come home
I expect to sit around and do nothing at all

Sitting around watching movies
The dishes aren't gonna do themselves
The garbage is full but I don't care
Because my life is all vacation time

So while my mom screams at me
And my dad says, "Get a job"
We never really know what we're doing here
And when I come home
I expect to sit around and do nothing at all

When I look into your eyes
I see a woman that I could never talk to
Even though you are standing right in front of me

I guess we'll never know the differences in the world
Even if I never lead another day
Your love is worthless if you can't love in return
Love in return

Never minded all the simple things
Could have happened if I was more interesting
But that's ok because I can find another

I guess we'll never know the differences in the world
Even if I never lead another day
Your love is worthless if you can't love in return
Love in return

(lyrics soon)